Sam Sinfield

In relation to my post from last week (back to old habits), I’ve been wondering if alcohol in general causes memory loss or if it’s related to the type of drink.

If i get really really drunk, invariably, i lose my memory and have no recollection of the night at all. However, if I’m drinking cider and black, i only need about 3 pints and i lose my memory, even though I’m not particularly drunk. If i drink lager, i lose my memory after about 6 pints, maybe less. If I drink vodka, i don’t seem to lose my memory so much, especially if I’m drinking it with red bull, i never lose my memory. After drinking a couple of pints of cider and black last night, and then switching to double vodka and diet coke, and having 3 or 4 of these, I was drunk, I did enjoy myself, I didn’t do anything stupid (although I nearly did), I went home at closing time (didn’t have to be reluctantly chucked out) and I remember everything.

I’ll have to put it to the test next time I go out on the weekend in a couple of weeks, all in the name of research, of course

I never normally post twice in a day, Brain can’t cope with that much creativity or thinking. This is just a short post to say happy 5th Birthday to my daughter Tara. Can’t believe how quick it’s going.

After spending nearly 2 weeks detoxing and reaching a point where i felt really good and was happy with how I was looking, in typical ’sam’ style, i have gone and f**ked it up.

I went down to Somerset this weekend and was looking forward to it. Got a couple of days off work, kids were with their dad all weekend and it was supposed to be a gorgeous weekend. I was looking forward to doing a bit of sunbathing, catching up with friends and generally relaxing with a couple of pints here and there.

I’m now back, and feel that I’ve wasted a whole weekend of my life as I can’t remember hardly anything and I’ve really paid for it. It has cost me a fortune, my foggy head is back after it taking about a week to clear on the detox. I am feeling pretty lousy again and have been a complete knob with my mates, most of them know me well and are forgiving of my many shortfalls, some however are not and i feel terrible. I won’t go into the details of my behaviour because what I can remember, I’m too ashamed to publish on the web.
The thing that makes it worse, is although I do binge drink when I go out and go over the top, i only go out 2 or 3 times a month, this is the only side of me they see and even though I don’t even live down there and only go down every couple of months, I’ve already got a bad reputation.

Why can’t I restrain myself to just having a few drinks and enjoying myself, as when I get hammered, i don’t enjoy myself, i just end up regretting it. Why do I do this to myself? How does a person be able to get a point during the night and say ‘no more, I’ve had enough’ without that point being them physically being unable to drink due to them lying in the gutter

It has now been 5 days since I finished the master cleanse.

The first day after I came off it, i followed the instructions for most of the day and just drank fresh orange juice. Late afternoon I moved onto smoothies and then I had a salad for dinner and I was fine. I had a smoothy for breakfast the following day and was in extreme agony with the worst heartburn I have ever experienced. I ate solid food and was fine and drank alcohol in the evening. I have completely gone off lager, that was a bit of a disappointment, I had to switch to cider and black.

My alcohol tolerance is still basically the same as it was before. My food tastes have changed. I do want things like salad more. I had a chinese yesterday and it tasted really really bland. My appetite has reduced and my eating habits have changed. I never feel hungry and I keep forgetting to eat. After a night out in the pub, my mates went to the chippy and I went home and made a salad. Mad!

I weighed myself yesterday and I’m now 9stone 6 which is brilliant. I haven’t been this weight since I was about 21 and I can fit into all my old clothes. I went shopping yesterday and it felt good being able to fit into everything I wanted, I bought myself an extremely short dress.

I feel fantastic, which was the whole point of doing the cleanse. I feel revitalised and healthy and am planning to do my next cleanse in a couple of months.